so i rode a horse for the first time in almost 6 months last night. needless to say i am in pain. but i am going to ride again tonigth and every night this week untill the weekend when i have to work at the barn. and i am going to ride all next week as well.

it was really difficult, not because i don't remember how to do things, but because my muscles couldn't do the things my brain was telling them to do. so it was very frustrating as well as physically taxing. hopefully in a month or so i will be back on track and riding half pass with the best of them. ok well maybe not half pass, but a really nice leg yield.

i missed being in the saddle.

i miss california. i really do. but sometimes it is hard to put my finger on what i miss the most. but this morning as i listened to the radio and heard one of my most favorite songs i realized that i miss stroke 9 a lot.

i can't really tell you why. sure they were fun, played good music, had some awesome tonuge in cheek lyrics and of course did free concerts, but there was something more than that.

i guess part of it is that when i hear their songs i am reminded of the two things i love: the ocean and san francisco. san fran because that is usually where i went to see them. i remember the first time i saw them in concert was at the see alice run event in golden gate park alomost five year ago. i didn't even know who they were; i had gone for the 5k run, but i ran out and bought their cd that day. Nine Days played at that event as well. i didn't run out and buy their cd.

the last time i saw stroke 9 in concert was at the beach in santa cruz last summer. i was sitting on the steps of the board walk with my ex (who only went because i begged him). their stage was set up facing the boardwalk so i could see the band and the ocean at the same time. it was awesome.

i miss that band they were so much fun to listen to.

i miss the beach, the ocean, and the smell of salt water.

i miss how small you feel as you stand at the waters egde and look out across the waves to the horizon.

i miss california. it's people, traffic, energy... i never realized how an area can make you feel more alive simply by the way it feels.

california has this hum about it, some would call it tension i guess, and some days it was so maddening i thought i was going to snap. but here in arkansas that hum has faded to less that a whisper and i feel no drive. i think i needed that tension; that little extra kick in the ass in the morning that said "get up! do something, and be someone!"

i don't miss him.

i think about him, but then i wish he had never come into my life.

and lately i find myself thinking more about what would have happened to me had he never been. it saddens me, thinking that i missed out on something great.

so i decided to stay home today from work. i was feeling a bit under the weather. and seeing as how the weather is pretty darn crappy that means i am feeling pretty darn low.

however the good thing about this crappy feeling (that has somehow become related to the current weather forecast) is that i got to play warcraft ALL morning. :D and i am now only one level away from my mount - a spotted frostsaber. i only have to scrape together about 24 more gold and then he is all mine!! mwahahahahaha XD

but my joyous morning of slaughtering trolls in the highlands around refuge point was cut short by a call from yalonda and a trip out to lunch for some mexican food. mmmm tasty

testing testing

ok so i know the layiut is freaking ugly...but it is temporary.

news:

changed web hosts from serverpro to yahoo
changed blogging software from mt to blogger

guess that is it for now.

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